A New Purpose
Since giving up on music more or less a few years ago I’ve kind of felt somewhat lost or without a purpose. Everything I’ve done since the age of 17 to 25 was based around music. Weather it was running a venue, booking shows, going to shows, playing music or trying to make it a career, music has been the thing i pursued. After quitting Serapis and having the gift of being self aware, I understand and am comfortable with the fact that it was as close as I was going to get to doing something with music. There’s also the age old problem of nothing ever being what you thought it was. The downsides of playing music for me in many ways outweighed the cons. On top of just never catching a break. All in Serapis would agree we were one of the most cursed bands of all time. Always on the cusp of a break and it always falling dead.
Point being, all my adolescent and early adult life I’ve had a goal and purpose. Something to work toward. Since abandoning it, I’ve felt very lost and somewhat incomplete.
I think I’ve found my new goal and purpose. Toys. Or rather my interaction with the toys. Most close to me know I’m obsessed with designer toys. Many not even close to me know this. My co-workers certainly do as my office is decorated with many toys.
I got to talk to the founder and president of Kidrobot today, Paul Budnitz about getting toys made and a little about running a toy company. He was very helpful and was kind enough to provide me with some leads to get the ball rolling.
I won’t continue to much but i’ll just say my new goal is making toys. Starting my own toy company. Probably run online and just distributing myself. i suppose the end goal dream would be something like Kidrobot where i had a store selling toys and clothes. but for now just selling online will be cool enough. I do enjoy my current job a lot after all.
Anyway, i feel like I have purpose again. Something to work toward. My life has meaning once again and I’m very happy about it.

